I know that its been awhile since I have posted here. I put the blame fully on the new wonderful app that a friend turned me on to. myfitnesspal is amazing for me. I love that it tracks EVERYTHING , and still makes me accountable by posting my exercise and weight loss progress on facebook.
Just realized (after looking at my posts) that I started my journey on the 6th of January. In less than 3 months I lost 28lbs. I am soo proud of myself, but the evil monster in the back of my head is yelling at me, telling me that its just not enough. I wonder when this monster will shut up.
I also have a new evil monster in the back of my head called Col. Danzer. He's my new pcm. After him telling me that I NEED to lose weight for my hip to get better, then critized my methods (asking over and over if I was doing this in a healthy way, and not turning towards bulimia or anorexia). I realize that I did tell him the wrong amount of time, but even if I did say January instead of February, I'm pretty sure he would still be on my case. According to him, a healthy weight loss is no more than 5-6lbs a month. And apparently, because I am as big as I am, I am incapable of working my ass off.....literally. When telling him what all I was doing, he asked who told me how to do this, who's plan am I following. UGH! Seriously?! Is it really so hard to believe that someone can actually do this on their own without getting help from a personal trainer or weight loss program? God forbid if I actually ate healthy (healthier) on top of counting my calories. Wonder what he would say then.
So anyways.. I hear his voice and my evil monster's contradicting voice, and all I want to do is shut down, and not do anything. For instance, right now. I came downstairs, to work out, and instead I am blogging. I need to take this oppurtunity, while the boys are napping, and get my sweat on (yes i really did just say that). So for now, tootles. And thank you for reading my nonsense!
<3 Ainna
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